Last week a FB friend posted something about their recently diagnosed borderline personality disorder, and mentioned suicidal ideation as one of the things that happened to him because of it. It's a term I'd only really heard in the wake of the the Savita case and the discussions into what could be deemed acceptable as legislation under X, I looked it up and I now realise that I had completely misunderstood what it meant, I took it to mean that a person is depressed to the point that suicide is an imminent and pressing concern where immediate action or monitoring is a good idea. In fact it's a whole wide spectrum of things from what I'd taken it to mean to the most fleeting of thoughts.
To that end I realise that I probably experience it to some degree on pretty much a daily basis, This isn't a cry for help or some shit, I'm not planning on doing anything. But it is the reality of my day to day life and I've learned to accept it and live in a mostly manageable way. But what surprised me when I read up on it was the notion that this (in the broader, milder form) is abnormal, are people not supposed to be like this? Am I not supposed to be like this? Really?
To that end I realise that I probably experience it to some degree on pretty much a daily basis, This isn't a cry for help or some shit, I'm not planning on doing anything. But it is the reality of my day to day life and I've learned to accept it and live in a mostly manageable way. But what surprised me when I read up on it was the notion that this (in the broader, milder form) is abnormal, are people not supposed to be like this? Am I not supposed to be like this? Really?