I just made myself half clean up my bedroom for the first time in a few months. Its so bad... I just cant...
Ive got so much crap that I cant fucking bare to throw away. Its just so bad up there, I cant go back up. My floor was layered and different kinds of crap, every time I remove a layer of clothes I find a broken CD or broken up half bottle of wine or something, thats ruined the clothes on top of it. Clothes that I havent woren in ages but cant bare to throw away are still there aswell, just cant get rid of them. Just in case. Worst thing that Im hanging on to is about 50 empty john player packets which I plan to make something out of some day.
Id let my mother in to clean but id be ashamed of what she'd find in there, she'd know how manky her daughter was.
Im a hoarder.
I suppose it will be the last time i'll clean it anymore I move away but I just cant bring myself.
But ive no choice to clean it, I get asthma if I spend more than 10 hours asleep in there. Theres mold growing out of half eaten food and gone off soya milk. I need Kim and Aggie.
I tried to shame myself into doing it last night, just thinking about all the things that people had said about it... every time Im at a house party with a certain group of people and I meet some one knew they first thing they say is "Oh you'd be suprised how she comes out of her room smelling ok, she had a bucket of sick under her bed for a month or two".
Must clean it.
Ive got so much crap that I cant fucking bare to throw away. Its just so bad up there, I cant go back up. My floor was layered and different kinds of crap, every time I remove a layer of clothes I find a broken CD or broken up half bottle of wine or something, thats ruined the clothes on top of it. Clothes that I havent woren in ages but cant bare to throw away are still there aswell, just cant get rid of them. Just in case. Worst thing that Im hanging on to is about 50 empty john player packets which I plan to make something out of some day.
Id let my mother in to clean but id be ashamed of what she'd find in there, she'd know how manky her daughter was.
Im a hoarder.
I suppose it will be the last time i'll clean it anymore I move away but I just cant bring myself.
But ive no choice to clean it, I get asthma if I spend more than 10 hours asleep in there. Theres mold growing out of half eaten food and gone off soya milk. I need Kim and Aggie.
I tried to shame myself into doing it last night, just thinking about all the things that people had said about it... every time Im at a house party with a certain group of people and I meet some one knew they first thing they say is "Oh you'd be suprised how she comes out of her room smelling ok, she had a bucket of sick under her bed for a month or two".
Must clean it.