RTL SUICIDAL DEPRESSION UPDATE ,WHY AM I DEPRESSED WHAT HAPPENED ,HERE IT IS
WELL HERE IT GOES THERES NO SHAME IN MY GAME ,
HERES MY STORY I WAS ATTACKED IN PARKSLOPE BROOKLYN NY ON MAY 14TH 2008
I ATTENDED A NEGATIVE APPROACH SHOW @CLUB SOUTHPAW IT WAS MY 38TH BIRTHDAY ,AND N/A FUCKIN KILLED IT THE SHOW WAS AMAZING ,PRIOR TO THAT I WAS LIVIN IN BROOKLYN NY FOR ALMOST A YEAR ,NY IS GREAT I LOVED THE MIXED CULTURE BUT HONESTLY ITS A COLD FUCKIN PLACE, HEARTLESS ,LOTSA PEOPLE JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK I USTA THINK NJ WAS BAD AS I GREW UP AND LIVED THERE 31 YEARS IN LOVELY PATERSON NJ ,ANYWAYS BACK TO MY STORY
I WAS OUTSIDE THE VENUE SAYING MY GOOD BYES TO LOTSA HARDCORE KIDS I KNEW FROM VARIOUS SCENES I MEAN IT WAS FUCKIN NEGATIVE APPROACH ,I HAD TO GO, I WAS GOING THRU PERSONAL ISSUES AT THE TIME ,I WASNT EATIN OR SLEEPIN AT THE TIME TO BE HONEST I WAS KINDA OUTA MY FUCKIN MIND ,BUT HEARING NEGATIVE APPROACH 400 KIDS GOING INSANE MADE ME FORGET WHAT WAS GOING ON IN MY LIFE SONGS LIKE PRESSURE ,NOTHING, I MEAN LIST GOES ON AND ON
SO OUTSIDE IM SAYING GOOD BYES I WAS WITH A PARTY OF THREE A GIRLFRIEND OF MINE AND HER DAD MY BOY ANTHONY OF KILLING TIMES COUSIN WAS PARALYZED YEARS AGO ,SO I WAS HELPIN HIM GET INTO HIS CAR AS HES MY BOY FROM THE WAY BACK FROM STRONG ISLAND ,I SAID GOOD BUY TO NUMEROUS PERSONS AND WE WERE ON OUR WAY HOME I ONLY LIVE 15 BLOCKS AWAY FROM THIS CLUB, WE GOT ABOUT 5 BLOCKS AWAY FROM HOME AND THATS WHEN WHAT HAPPENED CHANGED THE REST OF MY LIFE ,
I WAS BRUTALLY ATTACKED BY 3 DUDES IN PULLOVER HOODIES MY GIRLS DAD WAS KNOCKED TO THE GROUND AND OLDER MAN IN HIS 50S NOT IN THE BEST HEALTH WHILE MY HOMEGIRL WHO WEIGHS 100 POUNDS SOAKING WET ,STOOD THERE CRYIN SCREAMIN AND PLEADING WITH THEM TO STOP THE ASSAULT OF ME I WAS KNOCKED UNCONSCIOUS FROM THE FIRST INITIAL BLOW I NEVER KNEW I GOT HIT
,AND THEY WERE STILL BRUTALLY BEATING ME KICKIN AT MY FACE AND I WAS SAVAGELY BEATEN STOMPED OUT AND LEFT FOR DEAD ,I NEVER HAD A CHANCE,NO WARNING NEVER HEARD THEM COMIN DIDNT HAVE A CONFLICT, THEY MUST HIT ME WITH BRASS KNUCKLES OR A PIPE ,fat RING, CAUSE IT SPLIT MY EYE OPEN AND LEFT A GOUGE ON THE SIDE OF MY FACE ITS NOW A SCAR ,
THAT NIGHT IT WAS TRULY AN AMAZING NIGHT I GOT TO SEE NEGATIVE APPROACH I REMEMBER TOURING WITH AGNOSTIC FRONT IN 1991/92 AND ROGER AF TELLING ME FUCKIN N/A AND WHAT A GREAT BAND THEY WERE ,I FINALLY GOT TO SEE THEM AND YES HE WAS RIGHT
,NOW I NEVER KNEW I GOT JUMPED ATTACKED TIL I WOKE UP IN THE HOSPITOL,ITS BEEN HELL ,I LIVE WITH THIS EVERYDAY ITS A NIGHTMARE THAT REFUSES TO GO AWAY MY EYE WAS SPLIT OPEN I HAVE STITCHES IN MY EYE ,BLACK EYE, BLACKENED FACE,RINGING IN MY EAR A CONCUSION ,MY JAW CLICKS WHEN I EAT OR CHEW EVERYDAY I THINK OF WHAT HAPPENED ,HOW COULD THIS EVER BE JUSTIFIED , I VE DONE EVIL SHIT KARMA MAYBE FOR ALL THE PEOPLE I DID WRONG IN THE PAST WHO KNOWS MAN ,
DURING ALL THIS IM IN A SMALL HC BAND,WERE KNOWN WORLDWIDE BUT WERE SMALL WERE HARDCORE I HAVE NO MEDICAL INSURANCE I HAVE A HUGE DOCTORS BILL ,THE AMBULANCE RAPED ME I HAVE THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS IN MEDICAL BILLS I MUST PAY IM BEING SUED IF I DONT PAY HA HA FUCKIN UNREAL
WELL ITS NOW OCT 2008
I WAS IN A REALLY REALLY BAD DEPRESSION, AFTER THAT I FELT LEFT FOR DEAD ,SO ALONE MY MOM ,MY FAMILY IM SO SORRY I FELT LIKE THE BIGGEST LOSER STAYING AT MY MOMS ON THE COUCH ,WITH MY FACE BLACK AND BLUE STITCHES IN MY EYE AND MY NIECES AND NEPHEWS WONDERING WHO THIS MONSTER WAS ,,IM LIKE ITS UNCLE RICK,, HOLY FUCK WORSE SUMMER EVER ,FUCKIN HORRIBLE I FAUGHT HARD TO KEEP MY SANITY AND MYSELF ALIVE TO MAKE SENSE OF ALL OF THIS
I REACHED OUT TO THE HARDCORE SCENE ,I MEAN I KNOW EVERYONE OF YAS ,SEE YAS SOMEWHERE ONE TIME OR ANOTHER IN THE LAST 16 YEARS IN 25 TA LIFE OR THE LAST 23-24 YEARS IVE BEEN INVOLVED IN THE UNDERGROUND MUSIC SCENE FROM BRASIL ALL ACROSS EUROPE EASTERN EUROPE FLORIDA ALL ACROSS THE USA
ALL MY BROTHAS AND SISTERS TO FIND OUT WHO DID THIS
,
WHAT I FOUND OUT WAS NO ONE KNEW ANYTHING NO ONE DID THIS IT WAS RANDOM
JUST WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME
EVERYONE WAS SURPRISED AND SORRY TO HEAR
YEAH I HEARD SO AND SO DID IT WELL I KNOW SO AND SO AND GUESS WHAT THERES NO WAY YOUR INTERNET FANTASIES ARE RUNNING WILD
GET REAL ALREADY
LISTEN IM NOT ABOUT ANYTHING BUT STREET JUSTICE
CODE OF THE STREETS
NYHC 4LYFE
AND I BELIEVE IN KARMA AS WELL IT COMES AROUND
WHAT YOU REAP IS WHAT YOU SEW
WHAT WE ALL SING ABOUT AND BELIEVE
ACAB YES
LISTEN GOD LEFT ME HERE FOR A REASON , IM A NEW PERSON IM ALL ABOUT USING THE TIME I GOT HERE WISELY THE GOOD LORD LEFT ME AND DIDNT TAKE ME FOR WHATEVER REASON
SO IM PUSHING ON IM GONNA ASK A FEW FAVORS
HERES WHAT I NEED FROM ALL OF THIS
LISTEN
I DONT CARE ABOUT FANTASY HE SAID SHE SAID BULLSHIT ,SO JUST LEAVE IT BE
IM OKAY IM ALIVE IM WAY PAST ALL THE DRAMA I MOVED ON THAT WAS THEN THIS IS NOW
YEAH IT SUCKED BUT HEY IM HERE IM JUST BEING POSITIVE I GOT ALOT TO LIVE FOR,AND IM ALIVE
I GOT MY SON A GREAT FAMILY PEOPLE THAT CARE ABOUT ME AND IVE BEEN WORKING AND PUTTING ALL MY TIME AND EFFORT INTO OUR NEW CD THE NEW 25TA LIFE CD STRENGTH INTEGRITY BROTHERHOOD,THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO SANG AND HELPED WITH THE CD ,UPCOMIN NOV NY TO FLORIDA TOUR ,MY LABEL BTB RECORDS ,IM A STRUGGLING ARTIST BUT HEY YOU GUYS KNOW I ALWAYS WORK HARD ,,AT PUSHING THE CORE
MY FAVOR IS PLEASE REPOST THIS FOR ME ,
AND IM ACCEPTING DONATIONS TO HELP ME PAY MY MEDICAL BILLS ,AS THIS PUT ME WAY IN DEBT ,IF YOU CANT SWING IT GREAT IF NOT ITS OKAY ,I KNOW THESE ARE TUFF TIMES WHATEVER YA CAN SPARE IS GREAT,THANKS SO MUCH EVERYONE IM ALIVE HARD TIMES CAME MY WAY
PAYPAL
[email protected]
WHATEVER YOU SEND IS 100 PERENT APPRECIATED TO KEEP THESE PEOPLE OFF MY BACK
WITH THERE THREATS OF SUEING MY ,YA KNOW WHAT IM SAYING
SORRY FOR THE DEPRESSION SUICIDAL LETTER I WAS JUST BEING HONEST WITH EVERYONE
THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO WROTE ME EVERYONE WAS CONCERNED I LOVE YAS IF ANYONE NEEDS TO TALK MY CELL 443 801 4634 RTL
IF YOU CANT DONATE
JUST PLEASE REPOST
THANKS EVERYONE
RTL
NYHC FOR LIFE WORLDWIDE
http://collective-zine.co.uk/cboard/viewtopic.php?id=36857
He needs money so he can ride his horse to shows and not get jumped, yo.
WELL HERE IT GOES THERES NO SHAME IN MY GAME ,
HERES MY STORY I WAS ATTACKED IN PARKSLOPE BROOKLYN NY ON MAY 14TH 2008
I ATTENDED A NEGATIVE APPROACH SHOW @CLUB SOUTHPAW IT WAS MY 38TH BIRTHDAY ,AND N/A FUCKIN KILLED IT THE SHOW WAS AMAZING ,PRIOR TO THAT I WAS LIVIN IN BROOKLYN NY FOR ALMOST A YEAR ,NY IS GREAT I LOVED THE MIXED CULTURE BUT HONESTLY ITS A COLD FUCKIN PLACE, HEARTLESS ,LOTSA PEOPLE JUST DONT GIVE A FUCK I USTA THINK NJ WAS BAD AS I GREW UP AND LIVED THERE 31 YEARS IN LOVELY PATERSON NJ ,ANYWAYS BACK TO MY STORY
I WAS OUTSIDE THE VENUE SAYING MY GOOD BYES TO LOTSA HARDCORE KIDS I KNEW FROM VARIOUS SCENES I MEAN IT WAS FUCKIN NEGATIVE APPROACH ,I HAD TO GO, I WAS GOING THRU PERSONAL ISSUES AT THE TIME ,I WASNT EATIN OR SLEEPIN AT THE TIME TO BE HONEST I WAS KINDA OUTA MY FUCKIN MIND ,BUT HEARING NEGATIVE APPROACH 400 KIDS GOING INSANE MADE ME FORGET WHAT WAS GOING ON IN MY LIFE SONGS LIKE PRESSURE ,NOTHING, I MEAN LIST GOES ON AND ON
SO OUTSIDE IM SAYING GOOD BYES I WAS WITH A PARTY OF THREE A GIRLFRIEND OF MINE AND HER DAD MY BOY ANTHONY OF KILLING TIMES COUSIN WAS PARALYZED YEARS AGO ,SO I WAS HELPIN HIM GET INTO HIS CAR AS HES MY BOY FROM THE WAY BACK FROM STRONG ISLAND ,I SAID GOOD BUY TO NUMEROUS PERSONS AND WE WERE ON OUR WAY HOME I ONLY LIVE 15 BLOCKS AWAY FROM THIS CLUB, WE GOT ABOUT 5 BLOCKS AWAY FROM HOME AND THATS WHEN WHAT HAPPENED CHANGED THE REST OF MY LIFE ,
I WAS BRUTALLY ATTACKED BY 3 DUDES IN PULLOVER HOODIES MY GIRLS DAD WAS KNOCKED TO THE GROUND AND OLDER MAN IN HIS 50S NOT IN THE BEST HEALTH WHILE MY HOMEGIRL WHO WEIGHS 100 POUNDS SOAKING WET ,STOOD THERE CRYIN SCREAMIN AND PLEADING WITH THEM TO STOP THE ASSAULT OF ME I WAS KNOCKED UNCONSCIOUS FROM THE FIRST INITIAL BLOW I NEVER KNEW I GOT HIT
,AND THEY WERE STILL BRUTALLY BEATING ME KICKIN AT MY FACE AND I WAS SAVAGELY BEATEN STOMPED OUT AND LEFT FOR DEAD ,I NEVER HAD A CHANCE,NO WARNING NEVER HEARD THEM COMIN DIDNT HAVE A CONFLICT, THEY MUST HIT ME WITH BRASS KNUCKLES OR A PIPE ,fat RING, CAUSE IT SPLIT MY EYE OPEN AND LEFT A GOUGE ON THE SIDE OF MY FACE ITS NOW A SCAR ,
THAT NIGHT IT WAS TRULY AN AMAZING NIGHT I GOT TO SEE NEGATIVE APPROACH I REMEMBER TOURING WITH AGNOSTIC FRONT IN 1991/92 AND ROGER AF TELLING ME FUCKIN N/A AND WHAT A GREAT BAND THEY WERE ,I FINALLY GOT TO SEE THEM AND YES HE WAS RIGHT
,NOW I NEVER KNEW I GOT JUMPED ATTACKED TIL I WOKE UP IN THE HOSPITOL,ITS BEEN HELL ,I LIVE WITH THIS EVERYDAY ITS A NIGHTMARE THAT REFUSES TO GO AWAY MY EYE WAS SPLIT OPEN I HAVE STITCHES IN MY EYE ,BLACK EYE, BLACKENED FACE,RINGING IN MY EAR A CONCUSION ,MY JAW CLICKS WHEN I EAT OR CHEW EVERYDAY I THINK OF WHAT HAPPENED ,HOW COULD THIS EVER BE JUSTIFIED , I VE DONE EVIL SHIT KARMA MAYBE FOR ALL THE PEOPLE I DID WRONG IN THE PAST WHO KNOWS MAN ,
DURING ALL THIS IM IN A SMALL HC BAND,WERE KNOWN WORLDWIDE BUT WERE SMALL WERE HARDCORE I HAVE NO MEDICAL INSURANCE I HAVE A HUGE DOCTORS BILL ,THE AMBULANCE RAPED ME I HAVE THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS IN MEDICAL BILLS I MUST PAY IM BEING SUED IF I DONT PAY HA HA FUCKIN UNREAL
WELL ITS NOW OCT 2008
I WAS IN A REALLY REALLY BAD DEPRESSION, AFTER THAT I FELT LEFT FOR DEAD ,SO ALONE MY MOM ,MY FAMILY IM SO SORRY I FELT LIKE THE BIGGEST LOSER STAYING AT MY MOMS ON THE COUCH ,WITH MY FACE BLACK AND BLUE STITCHES IN MY EYE AND MY NIECES AND NEPHEWS WONDERING WHO THIS MONSTER WAS ,,IM LIKE ITS UNCLE RICK,, HOLY FUCK WORSE SUMMER EVER ,FUCKIN HORRIBLE I FAUGHT HARD TO KEEP MY SANITY AND MYSELF ALIVE TO MAKE SENSE OF ALL OF THIS
I REACHED OUT TO THE HARDCORE SCENE ,I MEAN I KNOW EVERYONE OF YAS ,SEE YAS SOMEWHERE ONE TIME OR ANOTHER IN THE LAST 16 YEARS IN 25 TA LIFE OR THE LAST 23-24 YEARS IVE BEEN INVOLVED IN THE UNDERGROUND MUSIC SCENE FROM BRASIL ALL ACROSS EUROPE EASTERN EUROPE FLORIDA ALL ACROSS THE USA
ALL MY BROTHAS AND SISTERS TO FIND OUT WHO DID THIS
,
WHAT I FOUND OUT WAS NO ONE KNEW ANYTHING NO ONE DID THIS IT WAS RANDOM
JUST WRONG PLACE AT THE WRONG TIME
EVERYONE WAS SURPRISED AND SORRY TO HEAR
YEAH I HEARD SO AND SO DID IT WELL I KNOW SO AND SO AND GUESS WHAT THERES NO WAY YOUR INTERNET FANTASIES ARE RUNNING WILD
GET REAL ALREADY
LISTEN IM NOT ABOUT ANYTHING BUT STREET JUSTICE
CODE OF THE STREETS
NYHC 4LYFE
AND I BELIEVE IN KARMA AS WELL IT COMES AROUND
WHAT YOU REAP IS WHAT YOU SEW
WHAT WE ALL SING ABOUT AND BELIEVE
ACAB YES
LISTEN GOD LEFT ME HERE FOR A REASON , IM A NEW PERSON IM ALL ABOUT USING THE TIME I GOT HERE WISELY THE GOOD LORD LEFT ME AND DIDNT TAKE ME FOR WHATEVER REASON
SO IM PUSHING ON IM GONNA ASK A FEW FAVORS
HERES WHAT I NEED FROM ALL OF THIS
LISTEN
I DONT CARE ABOUT FANTASY HE SAID SHE SAID BULLSHIT ,SO JUST LEAVE IT BE
IM OKAY IM ALIVE IM WAY PAST ALL THE DRAMA I MOVED ON THAT WAS THEN THIS IS NOW
YEAH IT SUCKED BUT HEY IM HERE IM JUST BEING POSITIVE I GOT ALOT TO LIVE FOR,AND IM ALIVE
I GOT MY SON A GREAT FAMILY PEOPLE THAT CARE ABOUT ME AND IVE BEEN WORKING AND PUTTING ALL MY TIME AND EFFORT INTO OUR NEW CD THE NEW 25TA LIFE CD STRENGTH INTEGRITY BROTHERHOOD,THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO SANG AND HELPED WITH THE CD ,UPCOMIN NOV NY TO FLORIDA TOUR ,MY LABEL BTB RECORDS ,IM A STRUGGLING ARTIST BUT HEY YOU GUYS KNOW I ALWAYS WORK HARD ,,AT PUSHING THE CORE
MY FAVOR IS PLEASE REPOST THIS FOR ME ,
AND IM ACCEPTING DONATIONS TO HELP ME PAY MY MEDICAL BILLS ,AS THIS PUT ME WAY IN DEBT ,IF YOU CANT SWING IT GREAT IF NOT ITS OKAY ,I KNOW THESE ARE TUFF TIMES WHATEVER YA CAN SPARE IS GREAT,THANKS SO MUCH EVERYONE IM ALIVE HARD TIMES CAME MY WAY
PAYPAL
[email protected]
WHATEVER YOU SEND IS 100 PERENT APPRECIATED TO KEEP THESE PEOPLE OFF MY BACK
WITH THERE THREATS OF SUEING MY ,YA KNOW WHAT IM SAYING
SORRY FOR THE DEPRESSION SUICIDAL LETTER I WAS JUST BEING HONEST WITH EVERYONE
THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO WROTE ME EVERYONE WAS CONCERNED I LOVE YAS IF ANYONE NEEDS TO TALK MY CELL 443 801 4634 RTL
IF YOU CANT DONATE
JUST PLEASE REPOST
THANKS EVERYONE
RTL
NYHC FOR LIFE WORLDWIDE
http://collective-zine.co.uk/cboard/viewtopic.php?id=36857
He needs money so he can ride his horse to shows and not get jumped, yo.
